meanone

so he is still gone. He says over and over how much he loves me and how much he wants to be with me…but he’s not ready to get engaged to me. I even compromised and said I will have a long engagement. Its not good enough. He tells me I am giving him an ultimatum…well i kinda am. Either you propose to me, or you take your time, get ready and when you are ready you call me and hope i am available. He doesn’t like that option either.  I really dont know what else to do. The only thing he is telling me is that he’s not ready and i have to wait for him…indefinately? I said this is like me being a red crayon. The child wants to color with the red crayon, but not yet. “When do you want the red crayon?” asks the teacher. “I dont know” says the child. “Not now…but I know I want it”.  “Well why don’t you justtake it now if you want it?” says the teacher. “becuase I dont want it now, but I do want it” says the child.   So the child wants the red crayon..but not now. But until he does want it, he wants it to sit on the shelf and NO OTHER kids can use it.

That is not fair. This is now all about fairness.